expecting baby H2...

Soooo... this is the post that should have been first, but since you already know the 'NEWS', here is a recap of how it all came together!

H is going to be a BIG SISTER and Berkley a BIG BROTHER!

I honestly cannot believe this is happening!

I found out on August 17th! This was all during the madness of me trying to go to Indianapolis and my family falling apart... {I added some details to THIS post.} I kind of feel like I have referred back to that one post a good 20+ times, but it is almost crazy how so many things happened in just a VERY short couple of weeks! I am so thankful I have two healthy grandmas, a healthy uncle on his way to a full recovery and a growing baby that we cannot wait to meet!

Leading up to August 17th, I hadn't been feeling very well. For a few days I felt like I was starting to get a cold. In the previous few months my 'monthly girl stuff' had been messed up so since it was 'really' light in July, I didn't really think much about it. {sorry TMI}. Since I was leaving on a girls trip on August 18th, and I knew that alcohol would be consumed, I decided that I should take a test. I got up that Friday morning and took it... and took another... and took another.

ALL POSITIVE.

To say I was freaking would be an understatement!

Justin and I had started trying earlier in the year, but in June, my brother and SIL told us they were expecting. I have waited SOOOO long for my brother to be a dad that I did not want to 'rain on their parade' during this time! That night I told Justin that I wanted to wait a year. I am not sure why I put a year on it, but I thought it would just work for us.

So when the test turned positive that morning, I was happy, sad, excited, scared... I really didn't know how to feel. I called my friend Shannan... who wouldn't answer her freaking phone. Why does that always happen when you need someone?! I went back to working and soon enough she called. We talked it out... I was happy. Excited. But I did NOT know how I was going to tell my brother. I just felt so guilty.

I knew, without a shadow of a doubt, that my brother and SIL would be nothing but excited. They are two of the most caring people. I knew that they wouldn't be anything but happy. But I still felt guilty.

After finding out, going on my trip and before telling anyone else, I started spotting. Since we have been down this road before, I pretty much knew the outcome. I was scared. Many times I called Justin crying at work. He would call me 100 times a day. I knew there wasn't anything we could do but pray. And that we did. After two days of it, it stopped. I am pretty sure I cried for another 2 days just thanking Him for His answered prayers.

Justin and I {and Shannan and Julie} kept it between ourselves until Labor Day weekend. We then shared it with my parents, granny, aunt becky and nana. I was SO sick Labor Day weekend. Nana came to the rescue and took H one day so I could sleep while Justin went fishing. I ended up losing 5 pounds over that weekend.

The Monday after Labor Day was my first doctor's appointment. My mom, Nana, Justin and Hadlea went to the ultrasound with me. I was so excited for H to see the baby... and wouldn't you know she didn't care one bit! She wanted to leave and get a sucker! :-)

When we went to my doctor's appointment, they were telling me I was around 8 weeks along... but wouldn't you know I was 11!! :-) I will take the extra weeks anytime! Ha!

I waited until after Alan and Amanda's Gender Reveal Party and told them that next week. And like I thought, they were nothing but excited! I actually told Alan first when I was talking to him on the phone one day. We were talking and all of the sudden I started crying. When he asked what was wrong, I just told him. I just couldn't hold it in any long. And wouldn't you know he started laughing. I apologized and told him how guilty I felt, but he assured me he was SUPER happy. We went over to their house that night to share the news with Amanda. I felt so much relief telling them.

We got to tell my other SIL, Riley and Hannah when they were at the house one night! I was so excited to tell the kids. Riley and Hannah are like my babies... I know I will get ALOT of help in the coming months from those two!

And after that... the word just started spreading {much like my hips! ha! Just Kidding!}

I loved sharing the news with everyone! I am just so thankful for our friends and family that we get to share this experience with! I know this will be the perfect timing for an addition to our family. After all, we go by His timing and not our own... something I need to remember! :-)

{And these pictures were supposed to include H in a 'Big Sis' shirt, but I was too lazy to put it on her! And... this just totally fits her personally! My little Lover!}